Smile ( a much needed rant)

No offense to this lovely human being but I must explain why in most of my photos I'm usually "frowning". This is mostly directed to to the wonderful men who keep catcalling me on the street, a friend of my mother's who told me I just NEED to,and this person. Well let's see why most people smile in the first place. Either they are just in general happy or someone\ something has made them happy.  Sorry to break it to all of you  but I'm not in general happy.  Also just by coincidence someone \ something has not  made me smile. Although I could fake a smile. I will not  because that would be lying. I have faked a smile for so many people,I will no longer do that.  I have other emotions.

Poetry's Friday ( young)

We don't care
About being young
And we don't care
About getting old
We don't care
About the men
And we don't care
About the words
We don't care
About the distance
We don't care
About the years
We don't care
Well make time
Just wait

Random Wednesday

Here's some old tweets of mine in the year 2012. I was very angsty and apparently pansexual? Enjoy!

Why people suck and you don't.

I've been picked on for as long as I can remember. From everything to the clothes I wear to the tone of my voice. It wasn't until middle school I started getting bothered by it. Also it was happening more frequently and at the time I couldn't understand it. Before this I wasn't used to being bullied. I fell into a deep depression and was very suicidal. I eventually got help for that. Although the bullying did make me very self conscious and insecure. I would also like to credit it for my recently developed social anxiety. The whole time I was going through this I was thinking, Why do people do this?  Why do people hurt others? Why do people bully? They do this because they suck!

Number 1 reason why people suck and you don't : Miserable people try to make other people feel miserable. To make themselves feel better. I'm not gonna lie to you like your third grade teacher and say it doesn't help because it does. It's like having so much built up anger and then throwing all on someone else to have. Although what kind of person does that make you? A coward who can deal with their emotions? The concept is quite juvenile don't you think? Find your path to getting out of your misery. 

Number 2 reason why people suck and you don't : You're more kind. This is just an assumption for all I know you could be a major meanie In most cases bullies like to pick on the weak and sweet. Let's think about this for a second. Who takes out time in their day to make others unhappy? When I was going through a hard time I just kept reminding myself to stay nice. Being nice was already in my personality and wasn't in me to be that way. Also you don't want to be that way. Remember they suck, you don't. 

Number 3 reason why people suck and you don't : You're perfect just the way you are. I was told a lot when people would pick on me that they were jealous of me. At first it was hard to believe because I really never saw any reason for anyone to be jealous of me. Low self-esteem can make you believe that you are worthless especially since you have a bully helping you think that way. Well I'm here to tell you are not, you're perfection. Why are you so perfect? It's because you're you and no one else is. It can often make others uncomfortable seeing so much perfection that they try to destroy it. So you can just be like them, a person who sucks.  

Although maybe people don't suck, maybe they're just like you struggling to live in this world and don't know what to do. Even though it's hard you have to be strong and try to find a way to deal. Life is going to be filled with lots of people who are weird, strange, odd, annoying and different. It’s not our place to make them feel uncomfortable or worse about themselves. Stay KIND and treat people with the utmost respect. Love people as family and most of all DON'T SUCK.

She Playlist

All the things she said -T.A.T.U
Every little thing she does is magic- The Police
Mind mischief- Tame Impala
Liquorice- Azealia Banks
Who run the world - BEYONCE
Girls- Santigold
Needing getting- OkGo
Boys wannabe her-  Peaches
Asking for it- HOLE
Rebel GRRRL- Bikini Kill

Photo cred: youtube

Poetry's Friday ( he)

He makes my heart flutter with joy then leaves me in the dark wanting more
And more
He makes me smile way too wide then somehow I end up with cries
And cry
He makes swoon to my knees then leaves me with bruises for all to see
And see
He makes my sing then I can't breathe
And breath
He gives me dreams then when he goes a nightmare appears in me
He leaves only to return again

Random Wednesday

Thrift shop finds. Check out my other  blog (        http://emayhaha.blogspot.com   ) For more information on these outfits.